I Disappeared

12/26/12 ---------------------------------------------------------- To disappear from all visions Locked deep in the willows of darkness Excruciating depression filling the inmost body Longing for a way out—a burst of nonexistence All the people—the loved ones Will wonder what happened to that poor soul And there will be no answer It is just too painful now Waking up to this dreary mentality Walking—trudging along the sun-shined path With frozen shadows clinging to the heels Sharpened blades swing in and out of focus And for a moment a thought comes To just jump in full swing of the blade —to imagine being in pieces With no traces of life left No more pain—save the sudden, thick slice The beating heart breaks and is tired The mind fried from all of the overthinking And eyes blinking—always blinking But never fully waking Embrace the nonexistence Welcome the disappearance While the merciless ink runs dead low Still revealing useless, unseen words With no flow—just awkward mess Salty tears soaking through the page As trees take form again in glistened shades Craving an escape—but running deep inside Disconsolate burning—ashes flying Still existing for those concerned There will be a hidden answer Someday no one will wonder why I disappeared