I Disappeared
12/26/12
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To disappear from all visions
Locked deep in the willows of darkness
Excruciating depression filling the inmost body
Longing for a way out—a burst of nonexistence
All the people—the loved ones
Will wonder what happened to that poor soul
And there will be no answer
It is just too painful now
Waking up to this dreary mentality
Walking—trudging along the sun-shined path
With frozen shadows clinging to the heels
Sharpened blades swing in and out of focus
And for a moment a thought comes
To just jump in full swing of the blade
—to imagine being in pieces
With no traces of life left
No more pain—save the sudden, thick slice
The beating heart breaks and is tired
The mind fried from all of the overthinking
And eyes blinking—always blinking
But never fully waking
Embrace the nonexistence
Welcome the disappearance
While the merciless ink runs dead low
Still revealing useless, unseen words
With no flow—just awkward mess
Salty tears soaking through the page
As trees take form again in glistened shades
Craving an escape—but running deep inside
Disconsolate burning—ashes flying
Still existing for those concerned
There will be a hidden answer
Someday no one will wonder why
I disappeared
Copyright © Laura Breidenthal | Year Posted 2012
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