How Can I Ever Understand

A little girl with an innocent heart waiting by the door all day long When is mummy going to come home? Isn't it past my story and bed time? Wouldn't I even brush my teeth or get a good night kiss from her How can I ever understand. Why is daddy looking like that? he only does that when my tummy hurts and the doctors get to give me some pills or every time Grandma's go to heaven but I'm right here, beautifully dressed in white and heaven is full of grandma's How can I ever understand. I heard the click of the door as mummy drifted into the house They hugged for so long Mummy! My tiny heart called Is it my birthday? I look like a princess Why aren't you dressed like me. How can I understand. I reached but couldn't touch Mummy has a red teary eyes she only does that when she cuts onions or when I sleep for such a long time but there is no onions in the house and I am right awake just beside her How can I understand. Couldn't they just see me they act like I am not here or is it a birthday surprise but my birthday is in 3 months time Why is Mummy clinging to a picture of me? And Daddy patting her at the back How can I understand. I spoke but they were not listening Maybe I am going to get a baby sister and they wouldn't love me anymore I ran upstairs to cry along with bonny My room is gone! and even bonny isn't there Where are my toys and my little cute bed How can I ever understand. I went out but Mummy wasn't there and daddy's smell was gone this doesn't look like our house but like the heaven grand pa talked about But I don't have white hairs and I can't be here I didn't even tell mum and dad I was coming How can I ever understand.