He & I
Red lights illuminate the hallow night of life & unabashed cruelty
Anxiously sitting at my desk typing words with little meaning
My mind ventures into thought...
Thinking about the past
I pause & reminisce about the time when I was a boy
Afraid to be myself, uncomfortable in my skin
I was & am in some ways still that child
I know everyone has their insecurities & fears
I wish to extinguish the flames of self-awareness & shame
Ashamed of being ashamed--I try to siphon the pain
A hopeless romantic in need of love
A distant dreamer who dreams of dreams
A comedian in need of laughter--
To bandage the wounds insecurity inflicts
Uncomfortable at times--in need of inspiration
A right brain thinker in need of freedom
I turn my gaze towards the harvest moon
Sinking in the moonlight I drift into a sea of stars
Starry eyed I soar through the Milky Way into a vast array of worlds unseen
If only time would allow me the strength to conquer feelings I can't express
Than maybe I'd find my way home
Home, where fear is never found nor sorrow ever 'round
Home should be a sanctuary from the chaos of mortuaries & hidden feelings
Hopelessly in love I dare not speak his name
For my morality does not afford me the inability to know right from wrong
Too strong to succumb to the intoxicating effects of love
Crippled in the ways of lust
Thinking thoughts of physicality & the intricate arrangement of bodies intertwined
I picture scenes between he & I, too embarrassing to describe.
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