Grieving Inside

Sacrifices I've made for loves ones Long face, sad heart, painful days Not even a clue if things would be like it is today Bad choices which I am now paying it with my life Loss in the games most of the times Getting beat down and crumble Bad luck seems to be chasing me all the times It stole my smile and hide away my happiness Every Time one appear it just wipe it off No pity at all, no mercy Nothing is fair My heart cries all the times Loved ones I've let down Loved ones I've disappointed It wasn't my intention Silliness caused all this Gilts I'm feeling inside out Shame has covered my face Try I have Sometimes makes me wonder Should I even bother Bad thoughts invading my mind I want to finish it once and for all But when I think how much pain this will cause my loved ones Only if they knew how depressed and sad I am So for their sake... ...I tied my heart and carry on to carry my cross Why, why? from now on my life is useless From now on I'm nothing