Friendship Lost

I let you open the box I sealed shut I let you into a dark corner I showed you the hidden I gave you the piece of me The piece I kept to myself I poured out my heart and soul I revealed things about me I’ve never breathed a word about You saw me, broken and beautiful You saw the scars, the pain, the tears You saw through my masks You saw the real me You loved the real me The good, the bad and everything in between I could never hide my struggles We could laugh about mundane things Cry together when we hurt Pray together when we knew of nothing else Call upon each other in time of need Enjoy each other’s company You showed me what it’s like To have a real friendship The kind people are jealous of And wish they were so lucky to have You changed my life You helped me see things with new eyes I knew of your dark past The pain and abuse you endured I knew what haunted you still I loved you the same I prayed for you until I ached I cried for you until I couldn’t cry anymore Then you hurt me You ripped out my heart And the piece of me I gave you You locked away and took with you You turned me upside down You planted bitterness and anger Rooted deep inside me Back in my dark corner I crawl back and plant myself Weary to let anyone close Weary to let anyone in I cry now for what you took I cry now for what I lost I pray now to be healed I pray now for your eyes to open I handed you my heart on a platter And you raked it into the trash All in a one day Because I stepped outside Outside your boundaries That you placed on your life And I messed up your world Forget that I need you now Forget that it is me that is struggling Forget that it was me that’s been hurt Now you are the victim I must wear the hat of the villain I pray that one day You realize what you did As I sit here thinking Tears well in my eyes At the thought of what we had What I found in you The memories we built together I still miss you I still love you But my heart you shattered I’ve never hurt so much As you hurt me The tears I’ve shed The feeling of being incomplete When you feel and trust When you give and share You risk this Risk it all being taken for granted Risk it all For what For this emptiness?