Final Prayer

Forgive me Father for I have sinned... Tears and blood stain my sheets as I lay motionless on my bed. Many of times have I attempted to stop my pain, my suffering. Now finally, I think I have succeeded. I shake and tremor as thoughts of my friends and family rush threw my head... Lord what have I done? in trying to end my pain, I cause my family grief. I didn't think of them before.. Dear God save me from myself... I just wanted to stop the pain. There was just so many thoughts going through my head and they wouldn't stop! Father make them stop... I don't want to hurt anymore. My heart body and soul is sore. And a deep darkness has taken toll. im numb... My eyes are blurred...I hear screams...Is this really the end for me? If so then please, Forgive me Father for I have sinned...