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Deceivingly beautiful, ugly hatred inside Sweet loving words mask thought of suicide Genuine honesty battles uncontrollable lies Temptation of euphoria fuels the fight Longing for a cure to numb the pain Grows like a monster unwilling to tame Giving into feelins, taking on blame Supposed to be stronger, never felt so drained Naked and bare to humility and regret Growing weaker to fear of pain and death Demands to stay and deal have been set To choose between life's needs or forbidden wants being met Searching for what's become unattainable bliss Finding nothing but answers that don't seem to fit Strengthens thoughts of not being missed And widens the black hole of not want to exist Loneliness makes time unbearable and empty Arising conflict on regaining internal peace Blur the clarity of what is meant to be seen Or continue to hope for what never will be. 10-15-2011