Downward Spiral

depression reduces me down to my knees, cant seem to see the woods for the trees. Allways on edge with a sence of tension, paranoid thaughts to vast to mention. Inside my head my mind runs riot, allthough i percive a charictor of quiet, forever picking faults with ones self, a deteriation of my mental health. to punish myself i began to self harm, rape my exsistance and cut my arm. latching onto any act of kindness, but vunverbility insuing blindness. looking for love in all the wrong places, hiding behind so many false faces. a losing side of a game of chess, more frustration as im trying my best. looking at life as a glass half empty, while reviwing others lfes resentfully. Alienating myself from human traffic, isolating for months its that dramatic. Everdecresing downward slide, but this is no funfair ride.