Deep Within

This is all just weird. Not bad, just different. My mind keeps trying to think of an issue, or trying to think I made the wrong decision. Is it because there is a reason not to go with it, because I'm scared or that its a chance to be happy. We used to hang out, laugh and be ourselves. Were the feelings there the whole time, just hidden? After we both expressed how we feel, and were willing to try something, and give it a chance, It made it AWKWARD. Thank you to a good friend, pushing us to talk alone. We talked a bit, didn’t really make a lot of sense but obviously it worked. We opened up, we are both on the same page. He says “Why are you stuck in my head all the time”, he can come up with an answer and clue me in. When he is here, I get all red, feel sick, butterflies, and sometimes just have to walk away. Smiling constantly. Sitting on the counter tops, both relaxed. He played his acoustic, made me numb. Eyes watered, whole body was shaking, even my lips. Just felt like I was dreaming. Where could this go, what could it lead to...... Not going to think of that , try not to. Just go with the flow and see how things go. There are kids involved and we both understand that. We are both ready for a change in our lives. We both connected from day one, but we didn't realize it was so deep within.