Complete As a Failure

done with all the he said she said. franticly in my mind. unknowingly it helps us grow sometimes. im complete as a failure. leaving all feelings behind no more hiding, no more need to numb to the words and the blows too. you seeing the water falling from my eyes gives you power something i completely despise im okay with being not okay im good at keeping my feelings away. hid behind a door. where you nor her can see my face anymore. around you i walk proud, like nothings wrong not even a blink of an eye. but when i get home, i sit and i cry. so sick of the thoughts in my mind. wish it would all go away the only enjoyment is when im high. gone like the wind. and yes there is a bulls eye, in the middle of the target you've lately painted on my back. i feel the burnin heat of your eyes i've tried everything but with you there is no comprimise