Chasing a Ghost

I wondered for the many times Forever wondering myself into nothingness Some self lost I can no more find Simply deceiving myself into being honest Chasing a ghost... chasing but an illusion Catching a dream... catching the dissolving substance As always as before, I caught my moment But already... I have forgotten And there I was... an empty shell The ghost in me wanders far and wide Into the seas of humanities I only fell The human in me... simply died Logics and reasons left me for good Reasoning logically is illogical unreasoning The very idea I fairly understood Yet I find myself ever constantly questioning My ghost wandered, I wondered Wondering into yet the promising nothingness Dying everyday... am I any left to ponder? As I laugh with the devil... I know I am honest