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Carnivore

The demons are out tonight. I can feel them running up and down my spine. It’s nothing but rag water and blue ruin. They won’t rest until I hurt something or somebody. I must vent or die. Better to do it now than wait. Waiting only causes more pain to those I love. The dogs are restless they know I am not right tonight. I have this razor sadness That only gets worse when the Southern Pacific pulls out of the world. There is no place to go and no place to be Except with this clanging and sorrow that knows no home. I count the tears on the counter and they don’t mean anything. Salt and water a sorry excuse for loneliness. And the demons they keep peeking their ugly heads out Feels like the whole damn town is ready to blow. I reach out and tug on someone’s coat and spill over the side. Then like metal raining down on your shores it stops. I have transferred the pain. I am one again. And you now suffer my sorrow. The demons are happy and I am sad. It is life-eating life.

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Laura Breidenthal

Date: 8/5/2013 8:20:00 PM

Ouch. And the last line... I am at the loss for words! I'll just second those comments below... Incredible! Always, Laura

Stephen Kilmer
Date: 9/1/2013 1:23:00 PM

Thanks Laura, always good to hear from you and I appreciate your comments. Your friend always ~Kilmer

Sean L Sanders

Date: 7/28/2013 1:19:00 PM

Nicely done I love dark poems it's hard to write one that I like you do very good. Nicely done poet

Stephen Kilmer
Date: 7/28/2013 1:37:00 PM

Thank you Sean. Darkness is my specialty. Glad you liked it. Kilmer

Karen Anglesey

Date: 7/27/2013 9:08:00 PM

Powerful and chilling. I felt the sadistic elements with a Poe influence. I love depth of this but at the same time haunted by the thought of urges that provoke the dogs to know that "I am not right tonight" WOW...

Stephen Kilmer
Date: 7/27/2013 9:14:00 PM

Thanks Karen, I appreciate that you get it. Poe has always been a favorite. I am going to work on some "up beat" stuff, but I guess you do what you know. Thanks for taking the time to read my work. It means a lot to me. Kilmer

Cherie Thomas

Date: 7/27/2013 7:46:00 PM

I know that loneliness all to well..we have to fight it and try not to let it consume us in those deep dark places that haunt our very, existance. Looking for diferent outlets helps. Expressing those feelings on paper is a gift, not to many people can transfer such thoughts into words...thats a blessing & also a great help to others. Put s in front of word and it spells sword, sometimes we dont see it but we feel it when, we can conquor, it one day at a time...peace & love cheriexx

Stephen Kilmer
Date: 7/27/2013 7:51:00 PM

Thanks Cherie. Your words help. I don't know why this world makes us so lonely. I think maybe the fact that technology has made us unable to communicate. I have no reason to hurt anyone but myself. I fight that battle everyday. The ennui of life goes on. Thanks for your kind words. They really help.