Bleaching My Guilt

The room is dark Because, I turned off the light I sit in the middle of my room I can see everything in black I feel the guilt, wanting to get out of my chest I'm guilty, Guilt is eating me up Guilty for letting my self down like this Guilty I can't sleep or rest I bleach myself so hard Hoping for my regret to go away Then I get my bottle of wine Guilt is taking over my world I close my eyes trying not to see then i see with my head I try not to think But, my heart won't set me free I wonder if I will ever let go I wonder if forever I will be asking the word WHY? I try to find answers for being stupid But, I know some day I will get myself through I take a sponge and keep bleaching Because, It is bothering me in and out side I bleach myself hoping to be clean again But, Dirt is stuck, keeps me far from reaching After hours of deep thoughts and tears My heart is feeling softer now I feel like a human again and I forgive myself I'm no more scared to meet my fear