Bipolar

I am bipolar, That’s what they say, Maybe the mood swings. Gave me away, Maybe it was the battle going on; Much deeper inside, That caused me to run, That caused me to hide. Peaks and valleys, up and down, Try to stay the course, They pull and they push, twisting, Tug and shove, inside out, I am powerless to this force, I am not living, just existing. The world is full of wonders, Happy breezes are blowing, The fresh air tastes sweet, My aura radiates, I am glowing, Roaming free on the open range, Mania rules on the peak, Soon it will change. This evil is back, Taunting me, haunting me, An overbearing cloak of black, Do not cross me, Or you will come to regret, The beast that swims, In my twisted sea. It’s too late, It has begun; crystal clear, Eyes wide open; heavy breathing, Tunnel vision and hate, The beast is seething, No time to run, no time for fear, Submit to fate. Regret is a vengeful troll, Who is always around, Rage is the noise, making a deafening sound, Anger is a blanket, suffocating my soul, Tortuously slow, Eating me alive, keeping me cold. No place to turn, nowhere to go. Never give in, never give up hope, In view of the trouble ahead, Buckle up and try to cope, Remember what I said, This is you destiny, punishment for your sins, To wait for history to repeat again.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2011


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Date: 2/25/2025 1:34:00 AM
well done on your featured poem. thanks for sharing
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Date: 3/1/2024 1:44:00 PM
Wow. What a rough sea you sail in. May you and and your crew keep your little boat sailing until the seas are calmed. J
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Date: 11/11/2023 2:53:00 PM
I am in AWE of this poem. It is not only well written but people fighting other battles can relate to your poem. I am not Bipolar but in mourning due to my husband passing. I feel those highs and lows, happiness and sadness sometimes at the same time. Thank you for sharing this poem. I am sure there are many other people can relate to your poem. Wonderful job!!! judi
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Date: 11/8/2023 5:18:00 PM
I have bi polar and can definitely see myself in this poem, ty for writing it.
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Date: 5/7/2023 4:09:00 PM
You perfectly captured the duality and the tortured waiting for the pendulum to swing. Wow!
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Date: 2/12/2023 4:33:00 PM
Samuel, I like your poem. Your honesty - right at the start is powerful, and continues through out the poem. Extremely difficult subject, (I totally relate) the pace and images bring the "ups" and "downs" sharply into place. I like the VISUAL shape of the poem...strengthens the poem. I usually don't care for rhyming poetry but I do in this piece. ___ good write. Thank you for sharing.
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Date: 4/25/2022 11:04:00 AM
Totally brilliant... insightful and to the brim full of resonance, at least for me. I'm simply amazed and grateful. TJ
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Date: 2/1/2022 8:09:00 AM
Thanks for bringing this to everyone’s attention. Powerful write
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Date: 8/11/2021 12:18:00 PM
This poem is a powerful way to raise awareness Samual. It's interesting to gain the perspective of the sufferer. The more any mental/emotional health is addressed the better, I think. Thank you for sharing this. And congrats on it featuring on home page. Natasha.
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Date: 5/12/2021 6:19:00 PM
Glad to see this featured! This is awesome! I love the feel of the whole work. Excellently done! All the best, Jonathan J.
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Date: 11/22/2020 9:55:00 AM
I relate but do not experience. Not me but somebody close. Well shown even from my limited perspective. A curse indeed that no one can reason away. Stay strong, good job expressing.
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Date: 5/10/2015 5:43:00 AM
Glad this poem has been featured. It's well written and deeply moving. It is wonderful.
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Date: 5/8/2015 7:26:00 AM
"Never give in, never give up hope." Powerful! I have written on this subject as well, but from the pov of the person living with someone with the disorder. Congrats on being featured!
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Date: 5/3/2015 8:30:00 PM
Samual, Congratulations on having your poem featured this week. SKAT love
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Date: 5/3/2015 8:15:00 PM
SAMULA, Dropped by to say hi and congratulate you on having your poem selected by Soup's Administration. This is a wonderful poem to have featured on the homepage. ~Always & Forever~ LINDA
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Date: 3/7/2015 7:18:00 AM
Great job!
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Date: 3/4/2015 10:34:00 AM
Boy can I relate to this! I suffer from Borderline Personality disorder and understand the feeling of almost helplessness completely.
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Date: 5/22/2013 8:05:00 PM
Excellent, Samuel, you tell us and share some of the difficulties of this condition, I have members of my family that share it, all the best to you.
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Date: 5/21/2013 1:38:00 AM
Very dark poetry Samuel, I have heard of Bipolar but now I am getting an idea of what it is like through your write. Not nice at all, I will pray for sufferers of it. Great write. God Bless. Dave.
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Date: 5/20/2013 11:26:00 PM
this is a good poem;...to wait for history to repeat again... poignant, keep making these issue transparent for us to read and reflect.
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Date: 5/20/2013 9:55:00 PM
Greeat dark Poem\ genuine, introspective, honest. mixing good and evil and giving resolution at the end> clearly stated good work
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Date: 5/20/2013 6:06:00 PM
I appreciated the inside view from someone else of this affliction. I have also written on this subject. I call it ''The Manic Nightmare'' I intentionally wrote it without punctuation so it would be read breathlessly. Keep up the good work Tlee.
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Date: 5/20/2013 11:47:00 AM
The agony of mental illness is sometimes indescribable. You have created for others to see a glimpse into this hellish world. Your words capture the chaos of this otherness. It is a exceptional accomplishment.
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Date: 2/17/2012 6:15:00 PM
This is beautifully written, so descriptive. You take all those emotions of the ups and downs and make it very relatable and understandable. Wonderful write.
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Date: 2/6/2012 12:12:00 AM
Wow this is such a good write... I can relate to this, I've had many intense emotional ups and downs recently and they really take a toll on my quality of life. Regret is something that is especially bringing me down. But you are not being punished for anything because in reality we ALL do things we regret or feel guilty about. It's a part of being human. Never give up, it's going to be ok in the end :)
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