BETROTHAL was sure you'd come
Waiting on the steps
Saw a hawk circling
Across blue sky.
My hair glittered in twilight
Slippery steps , algae invading
Eyelashes flickered in kajal.
My face glowed in the bronze mirror.
Weave yet another cool breeze
On my unveiled cheeks, my love.
Humming raga, MEGHA MALHAR1
I visualized rain murmuring
White threads of rain caressing
Welcome clouds of invoking rain
Like a diver-bird
Diving to get taste of our love.
Rain subsided, silence conceived love
Rain wept...........silky threads
Twilight gives way to darkness
Confidence fading off.
Can't he feel my anguish ?
Smell of clotting blood pierced nostrils,
Petrified, I saw white ants eating love up-
In delirium squashing head on wall,
Your fragrance estranged
I couldn't live with you
Nor can I live a life without you.
Shedding smiles, weeping dreams, hopes
Even myself to darkness,
Clad in brocade silk saree
Hands stretching out
To maids, sitting around
MEHANTHY2 decorating entwined fears,
Roots of brutal death.
I could't die with you.
Outside writhing in pain,
Tender blood oozing,
Becoming ritual mark on forehead
Fumes of camphor, clot of life
Blessing for long marital status.
Frozen tears spreading
Into a surrealistic painting,
Life dead in the hour of death
Leaving my dead soul, bride
Clad in blue silk.
1 Hindustani Raga.Tanen sang this raga invoking rain.