Bad Butterfly

Bad Butterfly Am I blinded by my future or jaded by my past? maybe I was in denial to think that this would last I'm sitting away from you giving you a blank stare while you're inching closer to me praying for me to care All I can think at this point is " screw my messed up mind" for realizing the truth I hid all along never really wanting to press rewind and look back to all the crap the hurt, the pain, the tears and i'm pissed at myself for thinking I was happy all those years cliche as it is the old saying holds true for in this situation its me, it isn't you its me that let it go on this long its me that held onto thin air its me that hurt and suffered in silence its me that held the pain to bear and now I choose to look forward and I pass my pain to you because it has to go somewhere not because I choose to get mad, be angry hate me for walking away but realize its better for me to go and be happy than to be miserable while I stay I will always be the bad butterfly weak and helpless at the start who grew strong enough to fly away and left you with an empty heart. 03-17-2009