Background

No one can understand the life that i have lived No one can fathom the things i have seen No one can know why i am the way i am No one can know where my live has been I come from the inside of a woman's body the person in which helped create me but i don't blame her I come from that woman not knowing The answers when her daughter asks for her father To call my own. Someone who could or would walk or drive me to school Take me to father daughter days and many functions at school Someone to know what to look for in a man and not be trapped by my own insecurities Someone to ask a million questions when i bring my boyfriend to meet the family i come from a mother who smoked weed everyday using it to defend herself against her pain no one knew the ailments that intruded her nightly dreams They just thought she and statistics were one and the same I come from being solo to having a sister Taking all the attention away from me Stealing my shine and my thunder Taking all away from me I grew up with no friends to rely No one to share my secrets with No shoulder to cry on No one to just be me with I come from being so poor we lived on the streets once no water, food, or money No heat to keep us warm or air to keep up cool just hand me down things I come from holding things in too much not being able to let go of emotions I am crying when i am mad or pissed off but quiet and reserve when i want to cry I come from having all of this and so much more I will never get things back to the way they should be I will constantly be dysfunctional and if you wonder why before judgement is passed my background you should see