Awakening

Alone White walls tinted blue surround. Lights are dim, Music plays. 3:00am roles around, Not a sound. Blade in hand, Carved a path. Alone Pink walls shaded pale. Lights are bright, Searching. 4:00am comes in sight, Which pills to take tonight. All in sight, Grabs water. Alone Blue walls shaded gray. Lights bleak, Crying. 4:30am is here, heart beats near. Popping pills at once, Water soothes it all down. Alone Black as night the walls are. Lights gone Waiting, sleeping. Hoping to not awake To the on going pain. To escape Take the easy way out. 8:30am comes fast, awaken with a numb feeling. The overdose, Failed as it showed. Alone White as day are the walls Lights bright Pain full in sight. What looked to be the easy way out Stopped by a higher force. Not time to die, Not time to end it all. Redemption was on its way, But no one can understand the pain What made one go this way To try to die, Cut everything including time I did try, A few times. But, like all things in life It just wasn't my time Had the pills succeded I wouldn't know All there is Life has to show.