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Always on my own

written 06/12/2012
Why do I bother?
Why do I care?
You don’t seem to care,
So why do I?
I surround myself around you,
I try to BE there for you
I want to help you, but you…
You don’t seem to want me
You don’t seem to want my help
It’s like you’re pushing me away
Did I offend you?
Why do you no longer speak with me,
Like you used to
Your words are sharp,
Like the tip of a sword
Your answers short-meaningless
Like you are tired of me,
Like you are bored, burdened by me
Were we not best-friends?
You never really said though…
I just assumed
So maybe that is on me
And it hurts…it stings
When you forget I’m around
When you ignore me
Never speaking
Never speaking
So much silence
Too much silence,
Silence is NOT golden
I wish I could make it better
Make it all better
But you will not let me
What did I do wrong?
Why do you not trust me?
Answer me
Do you not realize what your silence does to me?
Do you not understand that your silence is far more piercing
Than that of a newly forged sword
Why do you treat me with such hate
What did I ever do to you?
This silence is a killer
You finally speak
And I reply
And then nothing
For hours I’m left with nothing
I have been abandoned
Left in the darkened shadows
Hidden by the deafening silence you created
So alone
I trusted you
Like I trusted the others
And like them,
You left me
You turned your back on me
Never there for me
Never there
Like a fool I believed you were true
A true friend
And like always,
Disappointment, despair, and pain
Followed me
No one ever sticks around
And I always find myself
On my own

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  1. Date: 8/7/2013 6:41:00 PM
    It's hard to give someone space when you really just want to be there and help. It is harder for some people to embrace the silence...but when you do..later on, questions will be answered. It really just takes time. I see a lot of pain in this composition and for that I am sorry. Always, Laura

  1. Date: 10/15/2012 1:34:00 AM
    Hey it's good being on your own...really if no one is around it's better to walk alone and show the people who left you that you're better off without'em....great write, enjoyed!!!