Alone

Here I am again talking to myself as what I always did alone, sitting silently I only want to be alone..alone but afraid to be left and ignore. Can someone told me what's wrong with me? I'm not showy with my feelings But I am not numb, I feel pain too Didn't they know that? Maybe I am blind to see things as they are Believing, expecting for something that's too far to be real That only me can see and understand I want to shout and voice out what I truly feel But I was afraid, afraid to be me I'm good in secrets 'cause this is all I have My secrets that was never told, that forever untold.