Again My Night Fall's Long Dead

Ah, sweet breeze rushing in the house, empty but full of hate, the wind im sure is lovable, but is still hate piercing my eye’s, all I wanted was to make you proud, all I wanted was to feel alive, father, mother, you both so selfish towards having a son like me, no drug’s, no death, still fighting for my right’s in life, but I hate the fact you two are coward’s, running away from me knowing im here, alone in the house, I hear you both scream and all I want is to draw a gun and pull the trigger, im sure that will silence my ear’s, im sure that will help me relax, I want to fall dead long on coffin, but my beloved won’t let me die yet, with my seventeen year’s of life, I have roam the world of sorrow and drowned on hate, so strong the feeling I still remember the name of the devil who killed your love’s, father, I wish I can one day make you proud of who I am becoming, of what kind of man I can be, but you never listen, you never understand, im sure you hate the life you have, but ask me if I ate mine’s, im still thinking the moment you said I was a failure life, my plan to come to this earth wasn’t with you, yet you stole me from the devil’s hand and place me in this emotional misery, mother, why did you had to leave if long night’s I’ve been cold out on winter waiting for your warm arm’s to hug my heart, the love I had, the love I have, and the love that died, I hate you, all I say to myself is how I have survive so long, dead? No more for you, remember when you told me you wish I died? Then I guess your dead to me, mommy and daddy are mad at me, they said I am the king of the failed hell’s, guess what, I am, I am the one who will perish your miserable existence, but why? Why so much hate in me, if I know the seed of love is in me, how can this happened, so many voices in my head rushing trough like the wind home alone, oh, it feel’s alright, but why? You are my parent’s, I have seventeen year’s, I loved you, but because you made a mistake giving birth to me mother, and you made the mistake father of telling me the truth of my failure, now I’ll let this darkness surrounding take over me, I’ll let devil’s make a wish for the end of your life’s, but no, I still have to move on, I have my beloved, she is with me right? What if she leaves’s your side? And your left colds out in the night, what will you do? Then I’ll just stop my will and believe I can do it like I’ve been for seven twelve years, im not running away, im just facing reality.