A Soldiers Song

I sit here all alone Gives me time to ponder on what ive done Ive known pain ive known loss Ive even known someone take a shot at my boss When I get up in the morning I think of the night before Makes me feel old because the nightmares never go I never knew someone like me should feel life so incomplete When I was young I used to think of a career in my head One with guns and tanks Me being the one with medals pinned to my chest How far different life is I must confess. I used to dream of telling the grand kids stories of war Of the famous battles we won Now I know what its like I can’t even look someone in the eye Without the fear in going to cry I still live in fear If that day comes When one of mine Say I want to go of and play with the guns. How can I say no When my own father said that to me before He said why do you want to go to war Fight in a country far away from this Fight for people that don’t know you exist. If I had only listened to a wise old man And not gone away to that far away land I would go to sleep every night Without the dreams Of why did these people die? Now I am older and have a bit more sense and alarm I no the answer to question above I’m not telling anyone why I done what I have It’s a secret going to my grave Of young men strong and brave Now the years have past Kids grown up stopped nagging at last Of to college to further their mind Wonder if they ever think what goes on behind these tired old eyes Thank goodness they can’t see what’s buried in my mind.