Year End

Another Year is coming to a end, What a year it truly has been. Life has changed in so many ways, this is the year my Husband walked away. I don’t think I will fully understand, why he left or what part was my hand. I have learned though, the blame is not fully on him, for I had to have done something, for him to leave like he did. I can see changes I should have done and made, then my Husband very well would have stayed. It pains me to see our family know longer together, And replaying all of the memories of our better times together. I truly Miss my Husband and My Best Friend, Ill always cherish our times Antiquing and Fun times we had. Maine, Tennessee, and Texas are my favorite memories, I loved our vacation, and our adventure as a Family. Ill always be sorry for all the pain it caused our Daughter, She lost her innocents, and has learned a knew way of seeing her Father. Never did I imagine my Family not living under one roof, Never did I imagine our Daughter having two homes or bedrooms. Our Daughter has gone through so much pain and suffering, all because we couldn’t be Honest and Communicate respectfully. It took trial and error for us to come around, To be around each other, and find some common ground. To not fight with each other, point fingers and place blame, To open our eyes and realize all of the mistakes we have both made. Slowly we are rebuilding our selves as two individual people. Learning we both need to be better and mature people. Putting our child first, and making her priority, We owe it to her, to try and work on fixxing some things. Im hopeful one day maybe we can at least be Friends again, To laugh and joke and get back some of the things we once had. Its going to take a lot of work, but that truly is at least my goal and my plan. What a wonderful life we would be giving our Daughter, To Share Holidays with both Parents and her Parents significant others. What a great example that would be, for us to still be a Some sort of Family. No longer Traditional, Dysfunctional at best, but a family none the less. No Longer Married, No Longer Best Friends, Just two Co-Parents, Doing the best that they can, To show one special Girl How much she truly is Loved, That she is on this Earth Because of a Love that once was. The most important thing I walk away with this Year, You only get one Family, and need to hold them very Dear. -P-