When Lonely

When I'm feeling lonely and anxious, small and ineffective against depression descending like a brain fog bank In this Elder moment, I have grown faith even this chronic dark veil will withdraw, Although perhaps not as sure of when as tomorrow's fresh green/blue worldview dawn Naturally spirited dark nights for ego embodied wounds will recede again. When I'm feeling lonely and anxious, rather than healthy good humored and safe with gratitude For Earth's panentheistic pleasures win/win neurosensory practices, whole-sum dialectical praxis replete with paradigmatic revolutionary creolization musical recreations across all nations historically therapeutic nonviolent communications When I'm feeling anxious and lonely, I am wanting? Needing what? To feel healthy and recognize my situation as factually and fortunately safe in some way? I can say out loud and take my Verbal Hemisphere dominant self seriously rather than speciously, curiously rather than furiously. When I'm lonely and fear depression's disenabling and unenlightened fog, am I needing to feel ego-compassion, eco-systemic expansion? To see Earth's restorative health within balancing Sun's most resiliently revolutionary wealth, without? When feeling lonely what do I most crave? When feeling traumatized wounded internally divided stuck dissociated cognitively/affectively dissonant, Rather than bilaterally resonant inside as outside deep polycultural revival and widely inclusively multiculturally resilient Is cooperative eco-political correctness what I need for myself and with all EarthTribe's potential Yang-full Yintegral flow? Throughout healthy EarthSpace and wealthy SunRevolving Time, when feeling lonely, what does my egobody need, want, most crave? Deepest brave, courageously transparent, vulnerably curious way to stay safe and healthy multigenerationally and multiculturally and polypathically Yang monotheistic and Yin panentheistic, One full organic ZeroZone and not, not empty polymathic entirely coldly clinically theoretic. When feeling anxious I long for win/win robust anticipation Gratitude for a species too win/lose comfortable with VerbalHemisphere dominant genocide and ecocidal ideations While Elder Hemisphere wisdom prominently celebrates Spring rites of Yang fruitfulness and Yintegral full flow flowering Truth and Beauty Wholeness and elegant holonic co-relationships, co-passion, ego/eco-systemic Earth Tribal green integrity Synergy, negentropy, ergodically whole-sum holonic win/win open anticipating further enriching green comforting Earth healthy-wealth of co-passionate bipartisan energy.