Vuluntary Weakness

Becoming the man I have become Raging with massive desires To end the misery in my perilous life Challenging the riveting ciphers Ripping through like a sharpened steel knife I bring the pain upon myself Every moment in my days I have drowned myself in a spiraling haze Embedded in my brain Is the drive to struggle in vain Cleansing my soul seems impossible Treading through oblivious darkening clouds My ever-profound realizations Only make me stronger! You can’t break me for I am no longer! Completely erased The man I used to be I’ve been reaching out But I have lost all connection I am a different person Taken from this evil resurrection I am forced to crawl As I feel the need to stall The never ending procrastinations Weeping silently on the cold ground If I chose to fight I would be forever separated from the light Living in this Hell I could choose to rebel The consequence of standing up for myself To enhance my pride Will only make the situation worse Forcing me to drown in the thirst I am not weak I save my energy for a time of greater need You will all see What lies beneath my soften skin A diamond core Embraced by the terrible remains of my sin