Twelve Minutes Ago

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A story intending to convey a strong impetus for positive life change set within a grim tale of a young woman who sets about merely to imagine.  There’s no turning back from what actually happens.    


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Twelve Minutes Ago

I nestle a tab under my tongue
At just twenty eight, I’m still quite young

Before too long
I feel it coming on strong

Dreamily, lazily
I see my past with new clarity
Every question now answered amply

I see nearly three decades filled with so much regret
An eternity before I’m permitted to forget

I lead an unremarkable life 
Few advantages, laden with strife

Only now can I see the failure of MY choices
Surrounded by better options, my compassion convulses 

I can do so much more
So many different ways to create  joy galore
Menial tasks needn’t be a chore

It’s always been my choice
Is it OK if I choose to rejoice?

I can find ways to enhance my self respect
With others in need I choose to connect
What I have I can celebrate 
What I want needn’t devastate

It’s always been my choice
Is it OK if I choose to rejoice?

I can 
Live without disdain 
Lost friends I’ll regain 
Feel pride when sought-out comforting others in pain
Embody excitement, accepting the occasional mundane

I can 
Teach
Convey hope with new found reach
Channel empathy through innovative speech

It’s always been my choice
Is it OK if I choose to rejoice?

I have more control than I know
Now is my chance to let it show

There can be more laughter 
With humor, I can be an injector 
Mastering quiet, when others speak I’m an active listener

I can read more, learn more, invest in myself
Spend my time with greater purpose
Sprinkling fun into drudgery I’m tireless 

How do I know, 
This leads to a more fulfilling existence
A life of broad acceptance
In which I make a difference

I see all of this with great clarity
Only now
Because
I died, 
Twelve minutes ago

Copyright © | Year Posted 2017

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  1. Date: 3/22/2017 8:18:00 PM
    Check out my joints when you have time.

  1. Date: 3/22/2017 8:14:00 PM
    That's a deep one my friend.

  1. Date: 3/19/2017 6:33:00 PM
    nice write! I liked it :)

  1. Date: 2/20/2017 10:19:00 PM
    Anson, it didn't read to me like a suicide even with the intro note, rather a tale of an eye opening life changing acid trip. I guess this beholder is an optimist, creating a beginning out of your ending.

    Decker Avatar Anson Decker
    Date: 2/22/2017 8:07:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry


    I absolutely love that interpretation Maureen, what is death anyway?
  1. Date: 2/20/2017 11:02:00 AM
    Hey, this was an awesome read. I got chills at the end. I imagine a soul rejoicing for the lessons learned in the aftermath of a difficult life.

    Decker Avatar Anson Decker
    Date: 2/22/2017 8:08:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry


    Hey brother......a rejoicing soul in the aftermath of a difficult life .... spot on..... a warning to the rest of us, before its too late.
  1. Date: 2/20/2017 8:24:00 AM
    Good read

    Decker Avatar Anson Decker
    Date: 2/22/2017 8:09:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry


    Thank you Madeleine. I appreciate the encouragement. Anson
  1. Date: 2/19/2017 2:06:00 PM
    Hi Decker: A beautiful by poignant poem on the musings of suicide.

    Decker Avatar Anson Decker
    Date: 2/22/2017 8:11:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry


    Hey Ralph ..... interesting take. Was it suicide? What did she intend, what was she searching for as she placed the tab under her tongue. So many questions.