To see you

I feel like I have stopped running I am standing still now and I am poised But why am I stopping? There is no time to be tired Things to do People to see Things to say You can't rest now Not after all that has been said and done All that you have been through And I thought you were doing so well I feel hollow and scared - inside constantly Anxious to the point - where it is nail biting I just feel like a spare … part … like I am going … NOWHERE Or that I am not getting myself in order Out of place and out of my mind What have I been doing all these years?! Feeling otherworldly like I can't even express I feel distant from things and want something/someone near Troubled, alone and shaking and bending and grinding the gears in motion Say it now and say it loud The thoughts inside your mind are right You have always been A could've, should've, would have been A no hoper A flip flopper A gobstopper And life has turned around to you and has stop you dead in your tracks Pointing downwards in disapproval Sneering at you So, shed yourself down Break it all down and let it all go Make sure that no one is ever too close to you To see you