The Way My Ex-Friends Wan'T You To See
people always say to me
you clearly want to better me
succeeding whilst I fell away
conforming to normality
I don't meet or speak to people
face to face invisible
but hey, nobody knew anyway
one day there then never again
a mystery from the first day
I'm silent dealing with my fate
disbelieving our lost loyalty
down and out from living enjoyably
never turned and asked for help
from people I had helped myself
confident with an empty corner
individually fighting slaughter
unprepared as I stared
at abuse ever flaring
fighting alone and mocked when sharing
desperate for help with no one caring
my stories refused
and the truth was removed
for theories replacing
a suffering truth
a battle I'm losing
a war I can't win
and everyone's laughing
"don't listen to Trim"
suffering breakdowns
whilst labelled a fake clown
rumours are flying
I plummet straight down
had a world with a job
and a social scene healthy
to watching it robbed
screaming "somebody help me"
not ignored but refused
made a joke til it killed me
when changing my mood
an aggression had filled me
they'd ask me what's wrong
I'd say I don't know
overwhelmed in isolation
being overthrown
hostility I was facing
and a belief I was faking
my world devastated
and my image mistaken
treated as needy the first time I needed
branded a liar when I say what defeated
the help I reached for would lie and repeat it
the truth was unknown, I completely retreated
nobody knew and I had nobody too
I spoke as I sunk but my words were refused
removing the truth the theories come true
and now they judge me on rumours which grew
I turned to my friends then became a recluse
removing them all piecing what I'd been through
they didn't just fail me as they all stood amused
they made people think I'm some desperate dude
and everyone says they want to be better than you
so it's coming across when they speak as they do
with selfless help offerings and hope I improve
don't they look good trying to help a delude
but their short and their bald and addicted to weed
as I still have my hair addiction free
soberly writing as no one sees me
so very different to how i'm believed
with no one to help me process the grief
I can't sing can't rap I can't write poetry
I'm not seen face to face where eyes can judge me
instead believed how traitors want me to be
Now I'm seen as mad angrily speaking the truth
I don't care what you think cus you don't seek the proof
Copyright © Nick Trim | Year Posted 2021
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