The Hardships of Honesty - Speak To Me

Tell me this… In your vision, Am I your mission? In your eyes, Are their hints of lies? Why did you let go of everything you once had? It’s okay to have a new start; on the otherhand, it’s not bad They say that better days are ahead or so I’ve heard They pray that I will change my ways and be a free-bird Neither will I Show forth in an absurd herd I will, I will try To not say a single word and the rest assured Also, let me tell you this… I was always this caged-up, crazy lion Never was meant to be a bold champion Don’t mess with my delusional dreams Don’t address the unfulfilled goals at the seams Neither will I address yours Nor will I mess with your unfinished chores Or dreams you dreamt since you were a kid These farewells, I never wanted to truly bid Honestly, I wanted to hide away from the truth The lies don’t lie when it looks like a rotten tooth So, don’t fall short on deceptions Be enraptured by true redemptions Neither will I Ever think of holding a grudge against you I forgive on high I try to be Christ-like in what I say or do… Okay, I have had my countless downfalls and mistakes I’ve made All these debts and regrets that get me upset are not fully paid Neither will I Give up trying and rely on Him when I can do no more…say no more… I am a tough guy With tough skin and a huge heart that chooses to adore, not abhor Yet, I hate that I am this human sometimes Don’t rub it in my face, my filthy crimes I never meant to harm you like I did previously I want to make it up to you, for you are significant to me You surely surprised me By everything you’ve done Well, can’t you clearly see I wasn’t the criminal with the gun? Neither will I… Fall helplessly victim That, I can’t deny Nor, can I really fathom What you did was awful and did me wrong You abused me abruptly and I played along I allowed you to desert me in this desert of hurt And, yes, buddy, I hurt like an expert with little effort Neither will I… Try to save you from your aftermath Hope I won’t die If I do, I would have to face God's eternal wrath… Okay, maybe…wait, I know I worry too much! Perhaps, I need a spiritual, heavenly touch Neither will I, oh neither will I…deny... Nor will I ever Admit it to myself with certain eye That I am shy and I cry when things go awry Compared to Your courage that draws nigh So, don’t say “whatever” Whatsoever…oh, you better… Your words and actions that follow are much like the unpredictable weather… You are an efflorescent California Or, actually, you are fiery Arizona You can become an authentic Australia Or the freezing, amazing Antartica Yes, you can be anything you can ever dream of I will believe in you, but trust won’t be there, love Unless you have a heart to change… Let our time and events rearrange… Hey, it’s sad you choose the worst of the outcome Okay, I’m glad you made your decision – that’s awesome… Now, I will attempt to know myself a little more I have given up, trying to know you to the core Neither will I… Try to understand it all… You can’t fix a lie When truth will make it fall… And it will make its fall in no time I wasn’t the one who did the crime You had the gun in your quivering hand So, what more is there to understand? Things got out of hand, the usual, The moment you and I parted ways It’s typical you still play me the fool You told me thoughtlessly I’m drifting through bipolar bays... You tried hard to convince me with your lying tongue Focus on you and I'll focus on me – no tune of lies to be sung Honesty will thrive among… Us…us…of course, us If we were on the same bus All I hear is praise for yourself and no one else Does it still ring about a billion bells? Only time tells… You made your mistakes and I did as well… We all fell into our careless cell of our own hell Get over it and might as well get it over with… Speak to me the wicked so-called wisdom of myth… Because everything you do, There are a few consequences that come after Go ahead and say it so true Excuse me, life is not always a happily-ever-after – more like, never... You will completely understand the things I’ve gone through through and through for the sake of me and you…I don’t ask for your understanding, alone, if only you knew… Honey, no, I am not asking for chaos and mere disaster Because I am the stormy, sweltering weather in Arizona – hope you feel better.. Yeah, right!