Rudderless
Little drops of tears in my eyes well up
As I feel the cold, into my bones seeping up
I pull myself closer, trying to roll into a ball
And build between me and the world, my little wall
Everyone goes by, doing their mundane tasks
About my troubles no one cares, nobody asks
I lay there trying to make sense of everything around me
How did I get to this place? Am I really me?
I had a better life and for people I cared
I had love in my life, I was never scared
To step out into the world and fly high
Into the beckoning light of a bright sky
I had you with me, I had everything
We were so much in love, so I’d sing
Songs of happiness in my voice proud
A voice that died when you left me in a crowd
My days since then have been blurred at best
I searched for you everywhere, without a seconds rest
When I found you, you were in your world so happy
You looked at me, with beautiful eyes that didn’t see me
But I still had the will to fight for my only love true
I tried to come near you, to talk to you
But you shooed me away, as though I was a dog rabid
And since then my deterioration was rapid
I lay on the ground, bloodied and presumed dead
What flows in my veins isn’t blood, just something red
I have lost my will to live, too tired to even die
The once raging torrents of tears have gone dry
So I watch the world go by doing their mundane tasks
I don’t care for anybody, don’t reply if someone talks
I have lost the human being in me
Who am I? Am I still me?
Copyright © Manoj Kumar | Year Posted 2014
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