Regret

Every day, my life has been filled with regret. I should've found true love somewhere in America when I had that first chance. I regret being diagnosed with autism, mild MR (mental retardation), and OCD (obsessive compulsive disorder) at the age of three. I also regret not having a real-life girlfriend from another state, especially the State of California. It seemed that I had an unfair advantage or whatever. Of course, I had a somewhat good childhood, but it was almost as messed up as someone else's. The only reason why my life is filled with plenty of regret is because I was supposed to have a perfect life. I was also supposed to get everything right, that would've included my childhood. Now, instead of being rich beyond my dreams and being a college graduate, I'm stuck with a boring life. And even though I have no girlfriend or no job as of right now, the ones from my past, it's them that I really feel sorry for. And those girls from my middle school years and my high school years, it's them that I feel so sorry for, too. It makes me sick, just thinking about a lot of regrets. But what I really regret most of all is that I should've done something a long time ago, but there's nothing I can do about my past; it's already done. Right now, I wish that my life wasn't filled with regret and that I knew what my life would be like if I was born perfect and that I were to walk in someone else's shoes.