recognizin’ you, realizing somethin’ more

Deliberately recognizing the sun against the moonbeams I see your eyes gleam and your happiness screams Into my eager ears over the years and I’m tension-whelmed with the tears I shed Hanging at the last thread, giving in to dread instead…instead…instead… Hangover over your hating irrationally Anticipation with hesitation with what lies ahead and debating if I want to be dead inwardly Lonesome and numb and crumbling at the seams Mend my broken dreams as I allow myself to let out saddening streams Consuming all the catastrophic, crimson remorse Tragedy in reverse sees me through of course Recognizing you in the distance, Now, realizing Your resilient brilliance and woeless radiance Glance a grimace my way Dawn upon me no more dismay Mourning and slumbering all alone Good thing God is my backbone Sheltering shamelessness shackles my bothered brain I am not insane, even though I’m on this tribulant train Bewildered to your liking and I unappreciate your discarding, deteriorating depression you put me through and I can’t undo the damage it has conjured upon me Bring me to your touch of turbulentless happiness and extreme eustress I heard you’re dying alive in his arms and I’m sad and crawling into my cradle of weeping madness, erect with sorrowful suppression inevitably Sing to me your lyrics of longevity and lament and I’ll make you cry gladness With rejuvenation from on high… I try, I try, I try to heal you, can’t deny It’s not right that you reject me so But, my gracious God above will continue to glow as I continue to grow and my fearful tears of riverful growth aglow Feel me echo my empathy your pathway of under-pressure, painful laughter It’s a disaster that we parted ways and I am the master of my feelings of pleasure and torture God will see through these bittersweet emotions, wrapping around my mind frame I came undone the moment my battles of peace have been won with no room for shame I realize there’s something more to recognize about your adoration and lamentation My home sweet home is Your delightful, dreadless destination Incantations of cherishing hopes and cheers overflow I am all ears as long as I don’t shed these tears, you know? Tears of tiresome turbulences of tribulations Under the pressure beyond a million measures I have been feeling a ton of frustrations and sensations You’re smothering me and suffocating me with poisoned cures Of your confusion and chaotic, manic actions…my mind train strays and goes in so many directions; I never stay put in my sacred craze Your heartfelt, yet heartless happiness has shown me that you’re affectionate and considerate sometimes…God loves those who endures the sufferings nowadays I’m sorry, my language of poetry is unspoken of But, you, my fluttering dove, you have the ability to love Love strong and belong in the arms of peace-abiding angels…He mends those who are hopeless, broken-hearted and lonely They love you in all the angles possible and boy do they do the impossible through the Spirit of our Father in heaven and they stabilize in Your glorious timing only Prudence belongs to those earnest in all aspects of eternal life in a spiritual perspective without a fright Give and let live…I realize that you were dwelling in darkness, but now you recognize the light… He gives us divine, dainty delight As we take off like a plane in flight And we land in lands of liberating pastures of peacefulness We are making progress as long as we don’t dwell in darkness and be full of sadness due to rebelliousness The sunlight is meandering in the clouds overhead Diving deep in the dread of yesteryear instead But, I rise above my issues and problems of plenty…tremendously looking up to Him, hopeful He’ll answer my pleas It’s immeasurably, miserably overwhelming honestly…prayers bled through my mind and Your tourniquet of tranquility saved me at ease Was locked up in captivity’s hold Recently noticed I am stronger and wiser than I realize…love the awesome realization I fearlessly felt felt marvelous too Was knocked over by the cold Then, automatically, you warmed up my soul with kindred kindness beyond recognition…that was super heartfelt of You… Intangible, effulgent relief emerging into sudden realization passionately brews inside me like a healing potion of devoted optimism I longed for for so long Maybe, I’m just delirious due to lack of slumber…but I will surely endure this hardship if You don’t mind I’m positively sure I’ll find the keys to unlock me from my inner prison of an endless pitiful mess, helplessly wanting to belong I’ve grown accustomed to numbing the aches I did to myself when I self-injured…yes, I am in extreme need of a cure of some kind — I find that I was blind and fell behind in life, but strife will not overcome my trials that quickly unwind Thank you kindly, Lord of lovely Liberty Recognizing Your way of life and changing slowly…I can’t recognize if I’m close to my demise or am I wise enough to survive below the surface just to ascend above substantially, leading me to being truly free? Just maybe then, I will endearingly treasure and seek first His Kingdom unfathomably, yet it’s going to be astonishingly terrific Realizing that I have lots of repenting to do…feel free to lead me to your Kingdom of adoration — a love on many joyous levels…I pray you take wing away from the devils of your mind, serenity dove that I often dream of so earnestly, prudently and yearningly…that glorious day will come soon — it’s going to be encouragingly epic! To sum this all up in one not-too-complicated sentence — I now realize that recognize His loyal relevance and His delivering spirit of radiance His tranquility’s trace — We must truly embrace!