October 7th, 2023 Upon Third Anniversary of Mine Papa's Passing

October 7th, 2023 upon third anniversary of mine papa's passing... Death no longer jars, nixes, and rattles mine sense and sensibilities without pride nor prejudice no matter (even with marginal persuasion) wit and wisdom of Jane Austen ill mixes with what emotional state my poem fixes. Father long since embarked upon long day's journey into night into afterlife destination alone, October 7th, 2020 mid afternoon with Earthlings ministration did attone where night enveloped and date stamped his lovely bones rendered devoid of any groan courtesy Roxanol (morphine) and Ativan finding him prone to experience painlessness, and no his dying wish, plus last will and testament won't include burial and/or headstone cuz, he wants to integrate and did intone cremation as ecologically friendly option scattering ashes to parts known someday... yours truly will too succumb to the dead zone, where misery in the ascendent. Stark reminder to live fully an urgent yen to live life fullest between now and when... ever yours truly exits stage door left, perhaps ten twenty, thirty... eighty, ninety, one hundred... additional orbits around sun a remarkable human phenomenon (me) courtesy mine burning ken bequeaths modest minute man near accursed immortality longevity totaling even score of years counting (crows) and father time among his brethren. Distress unavoidable which mortality doth bring nevertheless, tis impossible mission to eradicate pain and suffering, which doth sting consolation assuages grief, viz prayer and buttressing coping with spiritual wing profound absence augments biting zing. Biological reproduction begetting offspring lodging within uterine abode subsequent in utero development regarding accretion embryonic node biological algorithm doth automatically encode, nevertheless longevity invariably affected no doubt courtesy lifestyle mode. Random crapshoot luck of the draw offspring born genetic blueprints also decree existence transient parents emphatically teach progeny got no choice must inform daughter(s), and son(s) ineluctably forsworn demise bound with birth certificate presents horn of dilemma conscious the next generation granted only so many Earth orbitz around sun. Once grim reaper deftly communicates I must bid adieu eternal hasta la vista to kith and kin please don't shed a tear for generic germane admirable bad company crew member, albeit healthy as an ox never got the flu, an atheist doubting thomas though genealogy records incorporate many a cynical Jew at least one legendary antiestablishmentarian gleaned within mine purview non-prodigal son edging closer to the afterlife while livingsocial within mortality queue shunned, ostracized and banished to Xanadu.