Northern Light

I take a deep breath My lungs are burning The air is like ice Making my skin feel numb like it is no part of me anymore A last bit of warmth lies deep inside of me But it is slowly fading away The arctic sky above Makes me feel so insignificant In awe I watch Shimmering colors Ever changing shapes Waves of beauty Rearranging and reinventing Toxic, glowing materia Clashing against an invisible shield I take down my armor And expose myself I trust you not to hurt me How long will it last How long will it feel good Before you consume me Kill every cell of my body Will I be able to turn away Or will I keep looking Can I protect myself Do I want it to stop Or is pain better than nothing Was it a lie A self created illusion Was is my fault Will i ever learn This dancing sky Is mesmerizing I should go inside And lock the door Start a fire again And slowly feel the warmth return Or I just lie down in the snow and look up to you As a tear runs down my cheek I fall into an eternal sleep