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marking time....to my friends on poetry soup.- the Lord helped me fight death and won.

i don't want to be just marking

time.  i died on november 20,

2008, during surgery.  i was

on a vent when i awakened 

december 2, 2008....my sisters'

birthday. what made me llive

i'll never know.  i know there

are things to do on this side

of death.



i have no time for marking time.

i have a stupid bag hanging from

my side now.  i am supposed to

"get comfortable with it".  well

that was a laugh.

that was a laugh until i thought

of the people that had these

things with no hope of ever

getting away from them.



i am so lucky.  14 days i laid

on a vent, then 22 more.

i came home 3 days, 



then 


i had
great pain in my chest...
.
well this is great i said,

a pulmonary emboli, 15 more

days, three days home.



then back to e.r. blood pressure

too high.  this bought me 

4 more days in e.r.



i am home now and finally 

have spent 19 days home.

i feel every pain and i feel

every time that i feel good



yes, i am never marking

time again.....there is

something about fighting

for your life and your sanity

that straightens things out.



i don't recommend it but

i wish i could let your hearts

know what i know.

janetta

Copyright © | Year Posted 2009




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Date: 1/20/2009 8:45:00 AM
Janetta my dear friend my prayers are with you. May you continue to get better each day. I guess this is what is called an awakening. Not a good one for the pain you went through. Love you my friend, Carol
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Date: 1/20/2009 8:30:00 AM
Janetta - I reckon that many prayers will be coming your way and mine will be among them - You did an amazing job of conveying your message - The ending was most profound - in fact the entire poem was - God Bless, MJ
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Date: 1/20/2009 4:32:00 AM
My prayers will be with you, and your family...get well fast, and take care of yourself...rest often.....always, Christy
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Date: 1/19/2009 5:49:00 PM
Get well, and God Bless, Janetta...I pray you will heal quickly. ~ Carrie
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