I Am Not Worthy

clouds burst with shadowed fear and i am encompassed in a deluging rainfall streaming with intense marvel, i seek not refuge from the pelting showers that envelope me in sorrow- for i deserve to drown in my regret salt pours down my cheeks- i am forsaken once again, lost in lonely memories with inundating emotions of loss and remorse i feel not the wet, all i sense is the desire to be cleansed and bathed in hope without being drenched in spiritual apathy as the rain laments down my arms, all the way to my wrinkled toes, i cannot help but remember the loss of love i endured last week so here i stand; body soaked in despair and disarray- awaiting my heart becoming a myriad of affection… once again ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 1.4.20 -luloo