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Have My World

I set fire to the caskets of your ever-burning shame
Crossing lines that were smothered in yesterday’s rain

Holding onto words that scorch my spirits 
My happiness to you living hell
Pulling me apart, smothering me
Telling me you love me but not showing me

You are like the first Twin Tower that fell,
Shattered and torn by foreign enemies
And I am soon the next to fall…
By the remnants of your grimace-laced tantrums
Shackled by your negativity 

It is a wonder one can sleep at night 
Feeling the dampness of self-pity you wallow in
Comparing and despairing… always comparing
I thought I knew you like a favorite subject
I thought I could be myself
But everything that is me is shredding you to tears
And I sigh, ached by your fears
Burying my talents so that you may stand tall
So that you can shine in the glimmers 
Of my poignant fall of sobs and shivers

…

I lose everything in the wasteland of your dots
Quiet descention weighing the worries
Keeping them down and in a flurry
Crawling around me, feeding the decay 
To never hear the voice behind those words
I love you… I LOVE YOU…
I scarcely know you

Kiss my shards that have once been whole
Cradle industrial waste because I can no longer taste
The tears you shed that are too fast for me to wipe
Burying me against the sharp rocks tonight
And you run away…you always run
That is all we ever do, you see

I am a happy person,
A content as ever being inspired by the galaxies surrounding me
Exhaling the laughter of my comrades
But there… in some dark distance…
I hear the high-pitched frequency of your tidal waves of envy

You can have my world…
You can have my fame…
I am heading to space,
Where I may find solace alone
And for once taste
Freedom from your stark embrace
Wanting me for yourself to fill in your space

Have you ever stopped to wonder why I am still around? 
I care for you beyond light and sound
But ever  for that—you hated, jeered and spat
Crumbled as you play the victim
Becoming an enemy I can only learn to love

So I hand this world to you
Where both of us have fallen
You can have my world—my words
But you cannot have me….. 

-June 2, 2014-

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Karl Marszalowicz

Date: 7/17/2014 4:17:00 PM

Hey hey if this is happy I don't need sad anymore! way to present someone torn in multiple directions though the madness driving this person is palpable.

Justin Bordner

Date: 6/8/2014 8:51:00 PM

Your anger is hot and genuine, just be mindful not to become what you despise. Your emotions are wild and have never been more beautiful. J.A.B.

Justin Bordner

Date: 6/8/2014 8:45:00 PM

Well Laura, for scarcely knowing someone, you certainly feel big hurt, and your frustration and condemnation seem to stand on a foundation of real affection soured by disillusionment. This poem has huge heartache, I sympathize with you. For you scarcely know you sure seem to have created real love and trust. I'm sorry you have this agony, but liberty appears to be your reward my friend.

Pace Ink-U-Script

Date: 6/8/2014 7:16:00 AM

You are very talented with your word usage. I'm not sure if its a male thing(running). But I know I try to walk away to catch myself before saying something I don't mean. Sometimes it's to gather my thoughts. But I've come to realize that women rather the guy stay right there and talk. It can be difficult at times. This may not relate to your current situation expressed in this poem but that's what came to mind when I read that one stanza. Beautifully expressed poetry!!