Frozen Into Divorce
The end to our sixteen years love affair
he didn't even try to hold on to my love
did I ever mean anything after that single wedding day
was this just your easiest way to be free of me
the days are never the same as I long with a deep need
how do you not even look back
was it a lustful date that lasted 15 years too long
you never wanted any of this
I recall mums very words
Denise is pregnant "but Lancey never wanted any kids"
these words have followed me through the 14 years of our daughter
was this all some kind of disaster you have tried to escape with desires not known to be the silent cold heart braking war with you
there is your cant do anything and my deep need for more,
as our different loving deep worthy love just changed direction
you begin to turn love and lust into my lover's dust
a day longer is words of hope, but its just lovers' rouble now.
dear husband, I hold hope, with all that I was
what could I do, what could you see that was better
well a divorce in future days find a future
I can't move till I end this love with you
will you ever find what you long for? if your so blind you had it all
the girl of your dreams was standing in front of you, only nothing important as it sidelined yet again
as you drown in the loss of a mothers' death you forget me, even more
you don't care the further from my heart, its tiny differences I see
longing for you to notice but you passed her by
her need grew stronger and lost a husband let her die
the letter she writes endlessly for him to show the lover within
he didn't want work added to his empty life, but he walks further away
her deep desire to be noticed as she grew followed but hurting
she began to suffer as days turned to years
as little argued points started she knew the day was in faced to see
the tiny argument erupted and all her pain exploded
his reaction was to be as defending the more he toured about
his dis care and cocky dreams as he was best so more aggression
the fort with words made this final contention
as he closed his fist her rage sprung to even more than she could control
with the need to hear his feeling every scream
for each breath deeper includes pain from the one before
her life ends as his goblin ways are reviling his scared ways
those new found lucky lassies, every single ladies nightmare was him.
his soul-destroying left behind undesired, lovers pain
finally, the reaction to show he has empathy, she begins to walk away
but its now all so very late, how do you really feel, 'nothing' heartless
give me something to know what I ever meant to you
but not ever did she hear how he could make the effort
the divorce is our love died long before I let go
he never thought it was coming back
with a mothers death, this husbands love fell into the crust of the earth
the future is not the heartbreak of mine
I will future divine for a lover is searching high and wide
list this faster-dying dream of o will be heald with an embrace of the kind and lovers deep feeling with our hearts to beat os one as the days take us home
how and where are you my caring man
I'm so lonely and need a lovers embrace
I will be waiting, fire in my soul as my search forever into the nights
will this Australian only as this dessert glows
this is a heart dying, your not a future
I've seen how her death has tuned your heart a darkness stained
cutting the heart your once loved overflowing
search for my loves lost and full of the edges flows
dear sweet future, I am there see....
will you ever find me before, I disappear?
Copyright © D.A Hopkins | Year Posted 2017
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