Explanation and Regret

My vision was tainted I just couldn't see the hurt turned into a red cloth held by a crazed banshee I charged with whatever I could find not thinking of anything the hurt just made me blind I didnt stop to think of you the consequences were not in sight My rage just turned into a bloody fight regret is now weighing me down the shame is raising and I must drown and hope the hurt that I caused you does not run deep as deep as you say I never wanted to hurt you that way I can't promise I wont ever do or say stupid things I can't promise sometimes when jealousy springs But I'll never be shy of saying I'm sorry I'll always admit when I'm wrong I'll never give you dumb excuses or sing you lies in a song I'll always be ready to listen I'll always be here to care When life is so so good Or things in general just aren't fair I love you for a reason you see things oh so clearly your the pure amongst the debris Whatever your thoughts of me now I deserve and don't blame you at all the damaged is done, is it irreparable? I know you need time and even then in me your trust you will find it hard to reinstall But just incase, to let you know I'm just here waiting for your call....