Don'T Leave Me Again

Don't know where to start nor how to explain She was in essence of Juliet, the sun She was the wife of Atlas, the second holder of the world my world... It's too painful to think about yet it doesn't stop the film from replaying in HD Like a mockingbird, it repeats and repeats those laughing times, sad and loving times and there the screen shatters as she exits stage left forever or so I thought in desperate, agonizing tears while I'm searching in several faces for the answer to why she's departing but why bring up the past, it has been a year now Yet a year later, is this a trick my love sick eyes have played upon me... is that her in the distance is that her, my once proud heroine, silhouetted sunset is that her... I have so many questions and so much to say but my expression is that of utter surprise like a ghost has re-surfaced among the living walking closer to me my expression proves blank as her scent sends chills to my spine while her fingers finds the direct points I couldn't help but hug her, help but hold her and in my head I was silently cursing the earth and in my head I was silently screaming 'WHY DID YOU HAVE TO GO? ? ? ! ! ' I wanted to share with her everything to explain to her how it felt to have her here once again but I couldn't find voice and like a lonely puppy dog I remained a follower, my legs betraying me slowly my long time rival began to disintegrate me beating in battle for class was about to start but I had to one last time prove to myself she was real, here in my presence I was desperately wanting to believe it wasn't the last time she would materialize in front of me but she whispered I love you, kissed my cheek and in one swift embrace, she said goodbye and headed for the door I wanted to scream 'DON'T LEAVE ME AGAIN! ! ! ' but I just stood stared stunned and I couldn't bear to sit in a classroom watching the movie in my mind eclipsing the sun, stealing her smile in an ill-fated kiss as she walked in slow motion out the door Wait! Where is my heart, where did I leave it last I look down and I didn't realize the gaping hole in my chest mangled, confused like a monstrous hand, reached in and took it but by the look of the wound She took it as she departed, it slowly jumping after her to say it loved her too while my feet stay glued, too afraid to be pushed away Did I go through a shredder, I feel like torn paper Is it wrong that I wish she was by my side again... Is it wrong I want to place one more righteous kiss upon her soft lips so I can erase the sting of my own ill-fated tears trickling down my cheeks