Dear God

Will i ever trust or rely on God will I ever understand him or most importantly will he love and understand me will he help me become sober, will he help me trust, stop falling for lust should I beleive in miracles because i am one will I be damned for what I have become will he help me when I am on my knees beggin save me PLEASE you've got me where you want me now, I stand high and drop my hands leaving my pain. my problems on your shoulder hoping you'll help me grow bolder my chest is heavy, my tears still burning into my face I feel paralized as i slowly realize maybe just maybe I will be released from this from a glace from your eyes I'm aware of my charactor deffaults and all the effects it has I want to change, I need some help, I need your love from up above maybe just your strength, I feel completley abandoned and it is now that I am wanting you in my life I know it doesn't happen over night, it's okay as long as each day I"m walking closer to the light day by day I'll say your name, loud and proud you'll guide me please let me let you in for I no longer want to sin I am damaged deep, deep within.