Daddy Issues

I can't date a girl with daddy issues because I've got daddy issues myself I still crave the presence of the Dad I never felt Why didn't he want me?, why wasn't I enough? I can't date a girl with daddy issues because I've got daddy issues myself The world will make you believe that only girls have daddy issues I can't explain that feeling when it sadly hits you The feeling of your dad choosing drink over you 11 years after your death, and I'm still spilling ink over you They tell you that a man showing his emotions isn't Masculine But If I drown in my own tears would it be suicide or an accident? I'd rather be honest about my errors than come in a fake beautiful packaging I carry an old girlfriend in my heart, but that's not classed as human trafficking I know that punchline is wrong to say I have weak moments even on my strongest days My worst fear is being like the Man I wanted most in my life Why do I still hate him even though I survived? Trying to figure out if this Vodka will kill me, or kill off my emotions? I was Numb for so long, but a girl bought my feelings back, and I finally had to feel what was broken I then had a thousand wounds bleeding at the same time, I was helpless Pushed her away because I felt scared, but She'll think I'm selfish It made me scared to get close, because old memories had returned I chose to light the fire so I wouldn't be the one to get burned But it was me who hurt the most in the long run Because of the choices I had, I made the wrong one I ended up more alone than I'd ever been I was still struggling with nightmares I'd previously seen I hate you dad, but at the same time I just wanted to spend time with you I have my own, so I can't date a girl with daddy issues