A Year Ago

About a year ago, as the COVID pandemic seemed to subside, then swell, happily ebb and yet impatiently flow Again, about a year ago I was noticing cold autumn nights bringing first frost to my metal windowframes and skeletal post-surgery-tired back and neglected aging heart. Outside corner unit 315 my view to the south of brownfield industrial waste not salvaged back quite to alive when converting this condo place to residential co-invested space. Outside all our interior doors, a CommonsGrace ignored for at least a decade of degeneration now accelerating divestment by investors seeking regeneration from short-term rental profits And also by resident owners who could not ascertain that others felt shamed by a stained and torn carpet, elevators that sometimes worked, cracked and vaporously blind windows, undressed plastic curtains dilapidated doors, impending rot and gloom and unimpressed financial doom. Now a year later our parking place more curiously awaits demolition, to become hauled away dismissed disposed of, lacking wu-wei sway, further disgraced to be replaced refaced in some future highway graveled trace. A year later our communication grace is in transition from feeling alone victimized by our own hired hands and by our Commons Governor demands indulging an economy of capital scarcity, patriarchal political remands of executive privilege, an implied theology of StraightWhiteMale monotheistic exceptionalism, as if godly wisdom comes down only from an enlightened professional high sacred plan, and not from within our ecofeminist administrators teachers mothers grandmothers sisters at least as swell and marvelously spanned Co-invested in cooperative win/win resolutions, ecologically reconnecting EarthCare constitutions, health and safety non-prostitutions, Yang strong and Yintegral flow of bicamerally balancing institutions, mindbodies for longterm healthy democracy, transparent bilateral trust an unmitigated win/win must Nonviolent communicators cooperatively planning and priority budgeting to heal our side-by-side loneliness by reconnecting cooperative care for EarthTribe Wisdom: a formerly healthy polyculturally wealthy sacred planet, a multiculturally inviting property for growing edible and ornamental plants and health-minded wealth-embodied people, enlightened LeftBrain strong and vital empowering RightBrain co-empathic flow of root and gut and sacred peak experience feelings revitalized resilience While planning not just to survive our individual autonomous lives but also to thrive through EarthCare loves for at least another 7-Regenerations of healthier healing LeftBrain ecological co-relations and safer sacred RightBrain more polytheistic EarthMatriarchal co-empathic re-connections. Our individual victim histories of patriarchal-capital values now repurposed to help heal our co-invested residential hues of PolyCultural Communion, rejoining planet Earth's great transitioning climate of health and re-contenting enterprise good news Rather than hiding in self-judging shame and Othering blame for moving in to unhealthy and unsafe historic property demise and feeling sad consumer used.