A Walk Through My Teen Pregnancy

i found out the shocking news i was only 14 but i was pregnant three months pregnant at that people asked how didn't you know you were pregnant i simply said i was showing no signs are you scared they would ask of course I'm scared I'm so young four months pregnant now i start having heavy bleeding i get scared and call my mom she answers i sob into my phone mommy i think I'm losing my baby what, when did you find out you were pregnant i didn't want to tell you but i found out a month ago i go to the hospital how far along are you four months can you do anything to help me not lose my baby the doctor looked at me honey your not losing your baby your just having a period while your pregnant now five months pregnant the baby's father and i get into a fight and break up three weeks later im dating a new guy who wants to help me raise my baby we are together for two weeks and he goes to florida on a trip comes back and i find out he cheated on me i forgive him he broke up with me two weeks later saying he doesn't think that he can handle being a dad at 17 now six months pregnant i am scared and alone not sure if even i can handle being a mom its a common concern since im only 15 the baby is growing healthy i ponder whether or not to give the baby up now seven months pregnant me and the baby's father are back together and engaged we decide we will keep the baby and move in together for once we think we have things figured out now eight months pregnant i go to my weekly ultrasound first week is fine week two rolls around i go and have my ultrasound they tell me my baby is dead his umbilical cord strangled him the admit me to the hospital induce my labor i give birth to a 5lb 2 oz 12inch long still born he is the most beautiful baby i have ever seen my boyfriend and i ask ourselves why us we both are so young me being 15 him being 18 we both blame ourselves fall into a deep dark depression both decide life wasn't worth living with out Xavier our attempt were just that attempt how ever eight months later we are glad it didn't i am now 16 and married we are so happy and want to try to have kids in the future we hope and pray we won't have to goo through that every again