The Road To Peace- Part Two

When I preyed to you to save me, you laughed When I prayed to god, I was ignored as well. So I learned that I would always be alone in this world. Every day filled with secrets I could never tell. At ten I could drink your friends under the table. I was barely afraid of what would happen in the dark. I knew you were too drunk to hear me scream And afterwards you refused to acknowledge my marks. So I stopped trying to fight, I didn’t make a noise. Because they would hit me less if I was quiet. Soon I was filled with your same need to escape. Every day I was on a search to find it. If it promised oblivion, that was all I asked. I immediately consumed it and waited for release. But every time it wore off, I’d find myself there again Always exhausted by my daily search for peace. At first I misconstrued it for trying to get away from myself Until one day I realized I was really running from you. The spread of your fourth stage cancer of hatred and malice And your unrelenting cycle of cruelty and abuse. Your perpetual blame laid on me for your own mistakes Finally had succeeded in taking its toll. Years of fending for myself, succumbing to weakness Had blackened my once pure soul. For you I could harbor nothing but contempt, disgust. The same lack of empathy you showed your own child. I saw that you were at fault for my years of torment. I made your rage, hatred, disregard appear mild. I could never give you a strong enough taste. All I wanted was for you to feel my Rapture. You tried to silence me once again, tried to lock me up But I wasn’t weak anymore and I refused to be captured. I left you to your misery, I relished the fact That leaving you with no one to catch you next time you fell Was the most pain I could ever wish to conflict you with Because then you would finally have to face your self.