Still..

The tears that I ‘ve shed have run a long and winding course. The hurt amazing, the memory aching, at times, as if no recourse. Your memory stayed, an unwelcome burden laying on me, like a stone. Too many lonely nights crying and alone. My hope tossed, left behind the day you walked away. Your memory beautiful but painful, refusing to fade. I’ ve faded to black, I live in violence and remembering. My fist my outlet to try and blur a memory. Pain and tears live with me like a lover. I await the day, when you are no longer remembered. Oh to move on with my life.. to simply forget. I dream of death, to forget all regret. I love you as if yesterday we had shared a kiss. I hate my stubborn heart; you I still miss.