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Not Tonight, I Swear, I Promise...Not Next to Him.

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Not Tonight, I Swear, I Promise...Not Next to Him.


He's not...

that discordant surreal Sunday,

he's not that memory, he's not these crooked tears

and I swear, I promise

I'm not...

broken, on the floor, shards of me reflecting


I'd turn around and pick this up, everything that's collected underneath me, torn up
scraps of love notes and the remains of


I'd be desperate if I found that to be attractive and piece together the scrawled
frightened letters that destructed proclamations, that whispered promises, broken by the
screaming of


We'll be someone, somewhere...

I swear, I promise

he'll find me somewhere, even if it's just my name...

scrawled out in despair by lonely, desperate hands that couldn't see me on the border of
life that existed on a dirty, fingerprint~decorated wall.

I know we're afraid of losing beauty and I drop to my knees~bruised as they are~I wince in
pain and cover my arms~

skinny as they are~

and pray the years are kind, pray these tears won't ruin me in the filth of stained
pillows that refuse to forget...

that Sunday night...

that refuse to allow me to sleep alone.

He's not...

cruel but he's


and I straighten him out with the silence of my name, holding him, folded, in my arms~

bruised as they may be~

as his legs intertwine around my knees, knobby, skinny, and far too tired...

but I'm not...

broken, I swear, I promise...

not tonight~


not next to him.

Copyright © JeanMarie Marchese

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  1. Date: 9/19/2009 9:47:00 PM
    " We'll be someone, somewhere.../ I swear, I promise/ he'll find me somewhere, even if it's just my name...".... You have such originality expressing sentiments and ideas. Wonderful! Ruben.

  1. Date: 4/17/2009 11:32:00 AM
    i love you little girl. as usual, you are a dream and i am so sorry for when you hurt. i hope the writing always, always helps you. janetta

  1. Date: 9/27/2008 12:18:00 PM
    JeanMarie - What a pleasure it is to read your poetry again - I was really ill at the time but as I recall you had a baby - right? Your poetry is as amazing as ever - God bless you and yours always

  1. Date: 9/26/2008 2:53:00 PM
    hi this write, seems sad, poignant and painfulful, a with a shred of hope, nice write, take care D-ncye

  1. Date: 9/25/2008 8:49:00 AM
    Well, where have you been?

  1. Date: 9/23/2008 8:03:00 PM
    Hey yong lady, you haven't lost your touch. Creative as ever. God Bless. Vince

  1. Date: 9/23/2008 5:01:00 PM
    disturbing. the message is well delivered.

  1. Date: 9/23/2008 1:37:00 PM
    JM!!!! You're posting!!! I'm so happy to see you back here, I can't tell you how much I have missed your words and visions of the poetic. I hope you and family are doing well as autumn arrives. Again I'm so glad you're here. HOORAY!!! Luv Ya, Charlie