Memory.Future.Hope

In my memory you stand proud and tall There you beckon, and I answer your call In the past, in times gone by You were all I needed to launch and fly Your hand reaches out to grasp and hold My fears are gone, I'm left but bold Your eyes shine bright, cheeks blush fire The time is mine to climb ever higher I wrap my arms about you tight And pretend you're mine, to hold tonight Your caresses are soft, gentle tinder To ignite the flame which now I hinder But now I wake from a dream I savor To find it fading, gone-but for a waver We are gone, no more to be us It all has faded away to dust The cracks are evident in the crust Yet this memory is crackling, is rust As days flow past, I move a bit further I make new memories that will yours murder You are gone to never return I remain here yet, become taciturn She is not you, she will be better Yet still you hold me in memorial tether Release me Pechenya* this day this hour From years gone by, our withered flower They blossomed and flared, sparked so bright It's all gone now to deepening night I cannot remain and be beholden To a past gone by, a dream long broken What I wanted, I thought I needed Are here present now and cry to be heeded Your graceful fingers in life as in past Hold me prisoner, an iron heart cast Her eyes are warm, beg me consider A here and now of future unfettered Tonight I bend my head and bow To your lost love, your long gone power Yet tomorrow she'll be there, to hope to care Tomorrow she'll bear, what you wouldn't dare She's here to tare*, what you told me to fare I'm here now at last, sin thought, sin cere* Your hold so rare must be now pared* Goodbye and be banished.... To your lair. * Pechenya - Russian, translated here as a pet name, "cookie" *Tare - "the weight of a vehicle without cargo, passengers, etc" *sin cere - Latin, pronounced "sin-sair" - meaning "without cheat, falsehood, lies," meaning complete honesty *pared - "to remove by or as if by cutting, clipping, or shaving"