I Need a Change (Not Me Just Wrote...Got Inspired From a Friend)

I burnt myself last night For once in my life I felt alright Pain was healing, Even if its wrong I know the feeling wouldn't be long It gave me power, a way of control Even if it was, fortaking my soul You will never understand, my way of being Until you go through what I have been seeing Drugs, violence, much hate inside I feel im slipping, I need to confide I dont want fall, but the cracks seem to big Im burrying myself in a whole I didn't even dig I need a hand, a shoulder to lean If I don't get that, i'm not sure where I will be This path i'm on, is a complete dead end I need to turn around and make amends Peace with you, and everyone I've hurt Before it's to late and my heart disperts Time for change, a new road to take Hopefull one day i'll stop from mistakes I know I wont be perfect, but it's not perfection I am after Instead of a world of hate, Im looking for laughter Happiness, with choices A little guidance, from a few choice voices I know, I can do it, I dont need pain Its nothing but a moment of healing, and then complaints In the end of time, I will better my inner heart Im not going to let the old me tear the knew me appart Im done with this path, It's filled with to many lies If I dont change, the only outcome Is I could die