I find myself awake again in the middle of the night,
I haven’t slept in weeks.
My body aches and my mind is a blur,
I fight to keep my heavy eye lids open.
I feel the soft sheets under my body,
the fan is ticking above my head.
I am bundled in the fluffy blanket,
all things are in place.
As I fight to go back to sleep the memory returns.
The haunting night of long ago,
finds me vulnerable again.
There is no beating an invisible foe.
The memory of us together,
the memory of companionship.
The memory of safety,
The realization of loneliness.